On what happened to my relationships after surgical menopause
Everything feels different, I no longer just put up and shut up
I have never been one of those girls that just goes with the flow or follows the crowd, I don’t take crap from anyone.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I don’t mean that I’m this nightmare of a person, I’m not at all but I have always been able to look out for myself. I am allergic to bullies, injustice and oxygen thieves.
I seek out peace now, surgical menopause took the wind out of my sails physically. But even more so was the mental and emotional change I noticed, I have become more of a loner, but in a good way.
I have always suffered with anxiety and depression, after my divorce and menopause I wanted to start again, so I moved to the Essex coast and I bloody love it.
The ebb and flow of the sea has always felt tranquil for me, I love the sounds and find it very calming. If I feel the old “black dog” trying to rear its ugly head, I go to my happy place, the wind in my hair and the sea air on my tongue always sets me on the right mind set again, if it could be bottled….
Change was coming for me, I was now a different person. I have always had many different friendship groups, but a lot of these just didn’t serve me anymore. I was a different person.
I crave peace nowadays, as you get older there is something to be said for the fact that you are not following the crowd, I don’t give two hoots what people think of me and wow, there is such freedom in that.
Spring is on its way, get out there!